so, wow, let's see here
considering the grimness of my last journal i thought i'd go ahead and tell you guys what's up

family situation is still pretty bad if not worse than it was in the last update, and my counselling sessions have stopped helping me so i've had to make the decision to go on anti depression medication
it started as of yesterday and while it may take a few weeks to get it actually started, it already feels like it's lessening my anxiety a little
bad news? its really screwing my body up big time. yesterday i was so sick i couldn't do anything, and today im feeling marginally better but have a major headache and can't see straight. but the doc did warn me these'd be the side effects, so im hoping they go away soon

after it sets in properly? hopefully ill have the motivation to go back to trying hard at improving my art, and finally get these commissions sketches finished because they're still lying around and i havent..had..any motivation im sorry
but yeah! there we go there's my big update for you all
if you want to catch up with me more actively you should check out my tumblr rightttt here --> [link] <-- I post a lot more stuff like scribbles and stuff that do eventually get to dA but potentially weeks later? so yeah
that's about it!! hope you guys are good!